Tuesday, August 08, 2006

commitment issues

The evidence of her infidelity. Crumpled and stuffed beneath the sofa and dumped in the garbage. Pinewood Forever and Poison heavy in the air killing the sweetness that had taken flight an hour ago. She scrubs hard when she bathes and brushes her teeth. Thrice. Any lingering scent or taste that might give her away is obliterated.

*

Her voice breaks as she promises to be loyal and faithful – vows she knows she cannot keep. She looks across the room and wonders how many of them cheat. All of them. She’s sure of it. She hates their smug piety. There’s still time a tiny voice tells her as a latecomer sneaks in to the last row. As the door creaks back in to place she worries that it will shut forever. She might never be able to escape. She turns around mid sentence and runs. Her words and silken skirt trailing behind her. She answers the shocked gasps with mumbled, half-hearted apologies. She reaches the door before it fatally clicks in to place and heaves it open. Satin pumps crunch against the gravel and she throws herself inside the car. Trembling hands grope inside the cavernous depths of the glove compartment until they close around the shiny smooth oblong.
She takes it out and smiles.

*

“I wonder whatever happened to Linda.”

“Just as well I suppose if you can’t commit. It’s not for everyone you know.”

“That’s enough chatter ladies. Now today at Weight Watchers we’ll be looking at how to eat what you like. In moderation.”

31 comments:

Falstaff said...

:-). So moving. one can almost feel the emptiness gnawing away inside her.

S said...

what a way with words....kudos to u'r writing skill girl!
keep 'em coming

The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

Falstaff - Are you making fun of her? Your smiley makes me wonder.
:(

S - Thanks so much.

Inkblot said...

wicked. lol

shyam said...

heheheh... there's cheating and then there's REAL cheating, eh? :)

Prerona said...

lovely! it was quite brilliant. i loved the way the twist comes. but there is one thing i didnt like - will tell u only if u really want to know.

ps - 2 questions - what was the oblong object and why the recent obsession with weight watchers?

reminds me how after yrs of struggle i lost alomost 20K during my last onsite assignment in UK. Gained it back in less than a month or so after coming back home. feel so sad. i actually gave away all my old size 16 clothes and bought all new size 8's and 10's ... now nothing fits anymore :(

The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

Inkblot - :)

shyam - Sometimes a little infidelity is good for us all ;)

Prerona - Please do tell me what you didn't like. Yesterday evening while I was making dinner I polished off 6 Ferrero Roche. I only realised what I'd done when I saw the wrappers strewn on the counter! I felt so guilty. That and this (http://lettersforall.blogspot.com/2006/08/my-dear-25.html) brought this post about. The shiny oblong object was some chocolate :)

And don't feel sad. if you can do it once you can do it again. if you want to :)

D.N.A. said...

"Crumpled and stuffed beneath the sofa and dumped in the garbage."

Simply evil! Gosh that was good.

shub said...

*WOW*

anjali said...

luvvverrllyyy...

Jay said...

Was expecting something dark and there you caught me.

Good one, as usual! :-)

The Inquisitive Akka said...

Nice twist in the tale!:) I understand what she's going through!

Ravi said...

Brilliant !
And you know what, reading it again after knowing the ending is equally pleasurable !!

The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

d.n.a, shub, anjali, tamil girl, akka and ravi - thank you all!

dazedandconfused said...

had to read it twice to 'get' it and love you for making me do that...:)

GhostOfTomJoad said...

Over from Prerona's...

That's really nicely done. Weight Watchers' Club, indeed :-)

Szerelem said...

quite excellent!
cheating while on a diet makes me guilty as hell...

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The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

d&c - :)thanks. really.

ghostoftomjoad- welcome! and thank you too.

szerlem - what an interesting name. what does it mean? and also, that's why I never diet ;)

Szerelem said...

:-)
Szerelem means love in Hungarian. yes, i know its terribly corny but was short on inspiration and was listening to the song (it's the theme of the English Patient) when setting up my blogger account.

n said...

fantastic last minute twist. you earn shoes, atleast two pairs. wht kind do you like?

The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

Szerelem - I don't think it's corny at all! I remember the music from The English Patient - it's lovely.

n - many thanks. and do you really have to ask what kind of shoes I like? ;)
(hint - look at the title of my blog!)

n said...

:( im not very shoe savvy i had to look them up on the net. but i know now :)
here.. i give you these..http://x23.xanga.com/1fcb965b4413542898765/b29102169.jpg

The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

n - Am touched! Jimmy Choos! They're lovely. I'd say you're very shoe savvy. I know just what to ware with them!

itchingtowrite said...

hey damn neat..LOL.. I once attempted a GM diet - man I cudn't face apples after the 1st day & cheated right thru teh 2nd day....
await some more of such dark tales..

scarecrow said...

u have a gr8 knack of surprising at the end.
saw ur latest post...hope u keep on writing like that..n best of luck for ur future endeavours..

The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

itchingtowrite - I know what you mean about the GM diet. I think day 3 is the worst.

scarecrow - thanks. :)

Kranthi said...

Loll..loved it SF. :-)
You are really good at these twists!

Kranthi said...

@Falstaff: "one can almost feel the emptiness gnawing away inside her."

:-)

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