Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Lost

I have lost something. I really can’t remember when I lost it, somewhere around the 2nd or 3rd perhaps? I have no idea where to start looking for it either – the Lost and Found counter at Euston Station? In the dark recesses of my cupboard – under a pile of crumpled shirts and trousers that don’t fit (but were a real bargain)?
Or should I rummage through the garbage – maybe I threw it out with the one million Pizza delivery mailers we get every week.

Perhaps you’ve seen what it is that I’ve lost. How do I describe it to you? It has no definite shape, size or colour – in fact you really can’t even see it. Neither can I for that matter. But I can sense it. When it’s there, it acts as an invisible cocoon against the cold, the bad news that’s on the television every day and the fact that I’m what seems like a million miles away from home. When it’s not there… I feel cold. Alone. I burst in to tears every now and then and drink too much coffee. I sit at work and think about being at home – snuggled under the duvet, drinking hot chocolate and watching bad, daytime television.

I’m peeling an orange right now. Maybe I’ll find it in the middle of one of the juicy, squashy, citric segments. Masquerading as a pip. Nope - not there either. I rummage through my bag – but all I find are old bills and even more pizza delivery flyers (they seem to be everywhere – telling me my New Year Resolution to avoid them is futile).

Should I go out and search in its favourite haunts? Maybe it’s window-shopping on King’s Road or having a big, fat cappuccino and buttered croissant at Patisserie Valerie.

Maybe I should put up some posters. Except instead of the usual adorable puppy or fat, one-eyed cat there will be a big blank space. And it will say

Missing:




Last seen on 2nd January at 10:16 am.
If found please return to owner.
Considerable reward on offer.


So if you sense a shapeless, colourless, weightless, odourless something lurking in a shoe shop or eyeing a double cheese pizza – it’s mine.

It’s my good mood. And I’d like it back.

24 comments:

TomCruiseChellum said...

Alas fantasticas
to the power of n
The twist or the sting or what ever you call it-- so good

Sakshi said...

Ahhhh....hope you find it soon.

30in2005 said...

Has it been such a bad start - its only the 9th. The bad mood is reserved for next winter not this...!

radhika said...

that was a beautiful post!

by the way, have you looked in costa's mocha-with-marshmellows-and-cream-hot-chocolate?
maybe it's there! the only other place it could be is between the pages of a giant Calvin & Hobbes book. yes. that's where it is. :-)

WA said...

:) Shoefie you do know the only remedy for this, is to make the life of the person next to you a misery. You will then feel better, much happier and before you know it you will be in great spirits. Good Luck

TomCruiseChellum said...

Visit OTAT # 5

... said...

That happens, sometimes. It is a phase that will soon pass. You have to make an effort though. Do all the things you normally enjoy -read good books, listen to some nice music and eat some good food! Everything will be okay - soon!

Great post!

Some Charlie said...

*Swishes her a pint* Cheers! There's nothing a good beer can't fix!

Minal said...

Awesome!
P.S: I hope you find it back soon!

LAK said...

I happened on a post which nearly made me fall of the chair, so I recommend it to you for your good mood:Try sayesha.blogspot.com;a post called 'what was that again'

shub said...

ulp!! n thought u meant ur mind!
:D
ahhh go on jus order a pizza if it'll make u feel better! I won't tell a soul!

S said...

We'll make sure you get it back by the first weekend in Feb!

..that is...if you don't get it back by then....

Nessa said...

Shoefiend, go shoe-shopping!!!! You might find it lurking about somewhere at your favourite shoe-store.. I've said it before, and I'll say it again, happy or sad, you've got a lovely way of writing it.. Cheerio, Nessa..

Arun said...

Oh! Don't bother, you'll find it. If you try losing something else also, you might find it faster.

The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

Hello! Thanks for all the advice and good wishes! I'm thinking of putting the shoe shopping and pizza eating and beer drinking advice to test.

I started the year with lots of energy but the first week sadly didn't meet my rather lofty standards. But I must say that everyones food advice has put a semi smile on my face. (Also I can't do depressed for too long - there're only so many black outfits i own )

alpha said...

Cheer up kiddo... I think I might have just found what you were looking for. It's in Chicago. You must come here along with that Sherpa of yours to collect it.

Oh well, if you figured it was a scam... At least saying that it was one heck of a post might cheer you up one nano-bit.

apu said...

Lovely! And now that you've got all the compliments... cheer up!

Mridula said...

Lovely post, seems you have found parts of it back again :)

Shyam said...

Shoefie, your good mood might have gone missing, but I rediscovered mine after reading this post :)

PS. I hope yours is back now!

N said...

Hope it comes back soon. Your writing sparkles even without it though :).

The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

After an invitation to Chicago and everyone being so darn nice to me how can I not cheer up? Oh and it helps that I'm going to Venice tomorrow :)

Shyam said...

Ok, after that last remark from you, shoefie, i've lost MY good mood - although I know where it is. It's with you, ready to go to Venice. VENICE!!! What I wouldnt give to be with my good mood....

:)

The ramblings of a shoe fiend said...

I promise to show your good mood a really good time and return it to you on the 4th in one piece :)

Ash said...

Awww.

well it seems like you found it in venice, so I shall leave no words of sympathy :)